
I’m driving with Lisa back from Maine. We’ve just spent a few glorious days fishing in the Sandy River on her mother’s property, collecting eggs for breakfast from the chickens, eating potatoes dug up from the earth. It was glorious.
We’re talking about how many men we know are losing it right now. White men. Severe depression. Physical illness. Clinical madness. The white man is going cuckoo for cocoa puffs.
I say: “The white man is losing his mind and it’s a good thing.”
Lisa believes it has something to do with Barak Obama being in power. What kind of deep challenge is it to the whole white male paradigm when a black man becomes the leader?
We both agree it has something to do with the financial crisis, where men who are used to providing have lost the power to do so. Who are they now? Truly, who am I if I cannot own the label of Provider?
I think it all has to do with a redressing of the balance of the divine feminine. The extreme male paradigm cannot continue without destroying the world. We need feminine balance. And it will happen. It is happening. Because we’re all so unconscious in it, it has to happen the hard way. Knock down. Drag out. But the results are the same — an equalizing.
Lisa has worry and compassion for the suffering white man, but I think their depression is GLORIOUS. A glorious paradigm shift. Every time I’ve grown spiritually it was because something I thought was important was taken away from me and I was forced deep into myself to discover who I really was.
I became an artist and a writer because of those severe illnesses and depressions brought on by external events that refused to support what my ego wanted.
So, if the white man looks out into the world and can no longer see reflected back his own white power. If he opens his eyes to a world where he has no ability to provide for his family, maybe, just maybe, he’ll come around to seeing himself as a fragile human being. As a person. Maybe hardship will help him see himself as an equal with all of us who have known a great deal of hardship, people of color, women. Maybe he will see he is not better. That he is not responsible for everything financially. That he has a soul that wants expression outside of the straightjacket expectations that society puts on men — a straightjacket that I think makes the white man so enraged and that’s why he acts so badly.
I say: Bring on the depression and illness. Maybe the world will be a better place. The white man is losing his mind. Maybe, sometimes, a mind is a wonderful thing to lose.
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